Okay so I disappeared for awhile, my computer crashed and then thing after thing happened. In that time I was able to maintain my sugar free lifestyle for a bit, then I fell off the wagon. Actually I lost the wagon. This reminds me of a passage from "Sugar Blues," by William Dufty, "...The difference between sugar addiction and narcotic addiction is largely one of degree. Small quantities of narcotics can change body-brain behaviour quickly. Sugar takes a little longer..." It struck me because when I started on the sugar again every seemed fine, normal really. I continued my day, telling myself it was just a slip and I would get past it. My day continued and late that night as I was going to bed I had developed hives all over my feet and hands. Although I knew it was the sugar, I remained in denial and continued. The first day began with a carrot muffin and some zucchini loaf. Small, nothing majour but it lead to the hives, a sleepless night and a full on binge. Next came doughnuts, then triple chocolate doughnuts, then a full on binge of doughnuts. It was as though I couldn't stop. I didn't eat them all at once but one in the morning, another in the afternoon, another at night. Disgusting really and the hives continued. I have literally ripped holes in my feet scratching.
So as we stand now, I am looking for the wagon to get back on. While I was off sugar people kept telling me that I looked good, lost weight and that my complexion was looking good. I'm lucky I don't think I gained weight when I feel off the wagon. So I'm back at it, today was day one and so far so good.
What I've Eaten: This is breakfast and lunch, it's not time for dinner at the time of post.
3 pears
2 apples
2 clementines
beef stew with turnip, parsnip, potato, carrots and of course beef.
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